Wednesday, February 1, 2012

What I hope my future holds for me - Day 17

How you hope your future will be like - Day 17

I have many hopes for my future - and sometimes this is a rough topic to think about because my whole future has just changed.

I honestly don't know what my future has in store for me... but I know it's going to be big.

I want to move back to Utah probably very late summer or early to mid fall. I just need to give myself some time and space from the real world.... even though the real work is still existing despite that....
I hope to start up school either next spring semester or summer semester. I think I am going to have to work all of fall semester to save up some money and pay off some debt. But I hope to be back in action soon!!!
I am going to be working very closely with an advisor when I move back. I need to get back on track with my major and figure out best way possible to graduate. Even though I was 100% sure I wanted to be a Child Life Specialist, once again, for right now, my major is up in the air again. I don't know if I just need these 6 months to take a break from the hospital and medical life, or if I just want to change my career track - but either way... I am trying to rethink my options for my major... We'll see what happens. If I end up in school an extra few years - so be it. But I WILL finish my major... I WILL graduate... and I WILL be successful. That's something I have no doubt about!!!!! I miss school (hard to believe?! lol) and I'm ready to get back at it.

When I move back to Utah, if everything works out, I think one of my good friends is going to share an apartment with me for a year! =) I am SUPER excited about this! She was Spencer's very best friend and I am really looking forward to getting to know her better and become close with her. She's a super great girl!
I want to live the college life. Not the sterotypical college life (drinking, partying.. etc) But just making friends... being really involved with school activities... staying up late watching movies with my friends... going to the mall... Having game nights..... those kinds of things =) I think that's the best fun!
I hope to start dating again in the far future. I don't want to jump into it. Not at all. But I do hope that my future provides me with an opportunity to find love again. I am VERY hesitant about all of that right now... Of course I am.. everything is *very* fresh and will be for quite awhile. It's very hard for me to think that I will fall in love again, get married again, and have kids with someone else. But I want a family so, so terribly bad. I hope I get presented with that opportunity! =)

And I hope my future holds a good job opportunity... When I move back, when I start school, and when I graduate from college and get a career... I hope I'm successful in finding a job that I LOVE and just live for.

Not last but certainly not least... I hope I grow in my faith 10 fold. I kind of backed away after Spencer passed - and even while he was sick in ICU for those 4 months... It was very hard to trust. But now I'm feeling it come back.. and I long to strengthen my relationship with my Heavenly Father!!! I am so excited for callings that I might receive, for many blessings that will be given to me, and to meet friends and create a family within my church. I also want to be able to strengthen and build my testimony over not only the next few years... but my entire life. I want to be centered and focused on my Heavenly Father and trust in him and that he will provide in whatever way I need.

I'd like to hear what you think YOUR future will hold!!! Comment on this post and link your blog! =)

1 comment:

  1. Nikki,
    It's Elisa:) I hope I can be in on these late night movies (not Amityville Horror though) and game nights when you get back to Utah.
    And Nikki, I just know you are going to have a wonderful future, full of love:)Keep your head up and your eyes on the future. Love this post:)