Thursday, September 22, 2011
Amongst all of the chaos that has been our lives these past 3 days I wanted to reflect on some positive things. It's been a VERY hard time for me and over all I think I have held it together pretty well. Of course I have my moments and last night was one of them. I feel like for all the negativity that I reflected I should take a moment to think about what I am grateful for with this situation.
* I am thankful for the VERY quick response that we had on Monday in treating Spencer. He was in very, very bad shape but when we got to clinic the doctors, RTs, nurses, coordinators immediately jumped into action. It was a scary day but if it wouldn't have been for their quick response and excellent calls Spencer wouldn't have made it.
* I'm OVERLY thankful for all the love and support that I have surrounding me. I just cannot even begin to express the gratitude that I feel towards everyone. I have been absolutely overwhelmed with all the kind words, thoughts, prayers that we have been receiving. We feel them, friends. If it wasn't for prayers Spencer wouldn't have made it through Monday night, as things were very serious.
I do want to take a moment to at least attempt to express my thanks to everyone. And please know that I can never, ever fully express just how grateful I am... You guys jumped into action with the thoughts and prayers right away. I logged onto my email and facebook and they were just exploding with notifications and messages. I didn't realize until later just how many people had taken the time to post our situation as their own statuses and trying to recruit even more thoughts and prayers. We have people supporting us who we don't even know and who don't even know us. I am just overwhelmed. Thank you all - from the bottom of my heart.
* I am SO thankful for my friend, Christine. I feel it's appropriate to give her the biggest shout out I can!!!! Not having any family here myself is very hard. I have struggled to find a support system for myself; but I have finally found it through many friends who truly understand what I go through. Christine dropped everything to be with me up at the hospital on Monday when this all started. She sat with me through everything and made sure that I had what I needed, even if I didn't know what I needed myself. When I got the news that spencer might not make it through the night - she was there to comfort me and she stayed so strong. She has been my rock through all of this. She was kind enough to offer her house to me to sleep in that evening so that I could be close should something happen.
Christine, I am so thankful to have you in my life. You're the definition of a true friend and I'm so glad we met. I hate the circumstances in which we know each other (Damn CF) but I couldn't have asked for a better friend to help me through this journey. You mean so much to me and I can never thank you enough for all that you've done. I cannot wait for our friendship to grow and blossom. We relate on more levels than one... more levels than most friends would. I look up to you as you've been through many of the same things with your relationship, your quest to find the truth and more. I cherish our friendship and I hold it very, very close to my heart. Please know that if you EVER, and I really mean EVER, need anything at all - I am just a phone call away. I would be there for you in a heart beat. Together we can get through all these obstacles that life throws at us and I'm so glad I have you by my side to battle!!!
I will leave it at that and write more later - as I need to take some time to actually look at some of this homework that has been piling up.
But I leave you with this:
Friends and family... please hold your loved ones close. Do not go to bed angry... do not waste the day away. Cherish every single moment that you have together - because honestly, you never know when a life changing event might threaten your time with one another. And please - If you love someone... tell them. Don't just assume that they know. Tell them and SHOW them every chance you get how much they mean to you. LIVE your life and love every moment that you have to live in it. You were given only one life here on Earth and do everything in your power to enjoy it. Hug those you love as often as you can... cherish the small moments together - as they turn into something much bigger.
I love you all and I thank you for reading this....